Forgiveness vs Suffering

I am struggling this morning to forgive someone, I went into meditation to ask for help, after a little bit I heard go write about it and share. I sense they wanted me to share this because so many of us are having things come up in this season of change, that we have a choice about. We either decide to hold the pain and all the yucky, humiliating and shameful stories we tell ourselves about that thing. Or we can forgive. 

So, let’s talk about forgiveness for a bit. Forgiveness is NOT saying to another it’s ok what you did to me. Hear me, not that!!! Forgiveness is really “I am not going to let what you did to me hurt me over and over again”. I am not going to run my life based on untrue things that you told me or that I inferred. I am not going to keep suffering, while you stand by unaware that you have even done anything wrong. I am not going to let the devistating pain you left me with ruin m y life. I am going to set my self free from all that pain and struggle by forgiving you, by detaching from what you did and seeing from a higher perspective. 

All are joined in the oneness of love. So any attack I have on another is an attack on myself. Energetically and spiritually anger, vengefulness, hate filled thoughts are acts of attack. So we are sending that yuck to ourselves, as well as drawing more of that into our lives, to prove the story we are telling ourselves. You’ve heard that saying that resentment is like taking poison hoping the other person gets sick… It just doesn’t work.

Psychologically, if I believe that someone hurt me, then I also believe in the consequences of that hurtful act. For example, If someone tells you that you are not good enough, and you believe them, then you start to feel not good enough and act in ways that make you seem not good enough. 

So, it becomes a question of faith. Am I going to believe in this unloving act as truth and then build my life and choices around that hurt. Or am I going to believe in the Love that created the Universe, the Love that connects us all, the Love that is who each of us is at our core.  And allow that Love to flow through me every day  and shoot for every minute? Do I put my faith in the loneliness or enteral connection? Do I believe in my unworthiness or do I believe in the worthiness of every child, woman and man? Do I put my faith in separation and injustice or do I believe that we are all one and we can figure this out? Where are you putting your faith?

Forgiveness does not mean that you allow yourself to be taken advantage of or used. Forgiveness holds within it Discernment. The discernment, without judgement for everyone is one their own path, to say this person, place or thing isn’t good for me. That’s all it is “this isn’t good for me”. Unfortunately, we humans have been taught that we must justify such things, which becomes a whole other ego story to create more pain. Simply allowing “this isn’t good for me” to be true and then taking LOVING action to honor that knowing.

During this season of our evolution as a species we are being asked to let go of all the old stories, hurts and limitation. Because we need to change the world. That is why we decided to be here on Mother Earth at such a tumultuous time of change. So that we can be Love. So that we can do our work and therefore impact the whole. Because we are all one at our core. 

So if you are struggling with forgiveness this morning, I hope this helps. It most certainly helped me to share about it with you. Huh, my guides were right on the mark. Imagine that! Spirit, Love sent the answer. Love sent the miracle. The miracle is when I shift my attention to Love! 

The miracle is when we shift our attention to Love!

My wish for you my fellow journeyers is freedom, forgiveness and a shift in your attention to Love. Just for today or even just for this minute. And in the next moment, deciding again.

Much Love! 

Autumn

Seeking Within the Barriers to Love

A Course in Miracles states “It is not your job to seek for Love but rather to seek within yourself all the barriers you hold against its coming”. As I ponder that the past few days, I am struck but something, that Love is coming. Because really, Love is all there is. Love is the force that created the universe. Love is the force that makes Oak trees out of acorns. Love is the lifeblood of all that is. Love is the essence of you and me. Love is already here. All around us.

And yet we have so many barriers to it. Any story that we believe about who or what we are; is a barrier. Any wounds or trauma that we hold onto; is a barrier to Love. Anything that we learned about who we are based on what other people thought or did; is a barrier. Every place that we protect ourselves or dim our light or hide; is a barrier to Love. We all have barriers to love, each one of us. Some of those barriers are conscious, meaning we know about them. Some of those barriers are unconscious and we do not yet know about them. Some barriers are energetic, others are thought forms or beliefs. Some barriers are generational, barriers that our family has had for generation after generation; barriers that were taught energetically, emotionally, physically, mentally. So many barriers. Another way to say this is so much healing to do.

When we heal our issues, our wounds and our unrecognized beliefs; we make room to vibrationally hold more Love and Light. Perhaps a better way to say it is, when we heal, we become more fully who we really are. We open to and surrender to the Love that is our true essence.

One of the ways to do this healing work is through sound. Sound has the power to bring the unconscious forward to be healed and released. Sound has the power to clear away energetic blocks or barriers to being your authentic self. Sound and vibration can bring the bodies back into alignment, allowing us to hold more light, more Love. Light Language has the power to activate, attune and initiate deeper levels of understanding, wisdom and healing.

Tomorrow night, on the Equinox, as we still bask in the energy of the Full Moon, I would invite you to join me for a Sound Healing Bath as we open to the healing transformational energies that will be coming in for our personal and collective evolution. As we willingly let go of the barriers we hold to love; we allow the healing energies and sounds to bring us back in to divine alignment and balance. Balance of the light and the dark within; the feminine and masculine within and spirit and the physical. Together we align with Divine intent, with the Love that powers the Universe and blast our co-creative intentions through the equinox portal opening to our new reality.

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I can’t wait to be in Sacred Space with you! And I look forward to seeing you fully embodying your highest expression of Love!

Until next time, all my Love!

Heart Resonance, Love & Divine Alignment

Goddess Gaia, Pacha Mama, Mother Earth, whatever you choose to call her, resonates at a vibration of Love, of pure heart resonance. All of nature is attuned to that heart frequency; we can feel it when we are in nature, away from it all. We can fill the fullness that is present. We can feel the peace and harmony that is core to natures functioning. We can feel the unity and cooperation by all the vital, equally important, equally respected aspects of nature.

 Our human bodies are designed to resonate at that same frequency, the frequency of Love, the frequency of Growth, the frequency Peace; just like all of nature does. 

Take a minute to think of your favorite spot in nature. Breathing slowly and deeply, let yourself imagine it, picture it in your mind. Imagine that you can hear the sounds of your favorite spot out with the Mother. Imagine that you feel the creatures that inhabit that land. Imagine that your senses are experiencing that beloved part of the Mother, feeling the wind, smelling the flowers, tasting the freshness of the air. Allow yourself to remember all the reasons you love that spot as you take 4 or 5 more slow deep breaths. 

Now notice your heart space. Do you feel gratitude, love, peace, aliveness? Just from spending a few minutes thinking about your favorite place to connect with the Mother, with the Goddess with Love. That presence, those feelings of connection are always available to us. We just forget to sense, feel or allow it to be present in our awareness. We imagine that the walls and the floor keep us separate from the “out there”. We recognize the reality that we are never separate; the truth in our heart is that we are all One. That we are always unconsciously or consciously One. That One is Love. Walls and floors cannot keep us from that truth, nor can they keep us from feeling the support, peace, wisdom and Love that comes from that connection. Only we can keep us from that, with our thoughts. 

All the thoughts and stories that we tell ourselves about who we are and who the other is. Stories that were given to us by people who didn’t really know who they were, people who were believing in the fears and limitations they had been taught. This is what keeps us from feeling our connection with all that is, from feeling the Love that oozes out of creation. 

When we can be present, fully in this moment we can find that we are the peace, beauty and grace that we call Gaia. We are the creativity and imagination that we call Mother Earth. We are that resonance of Love. The Love that causes Mother Earth to rotate around the sun. The Love that causes flowers to bloom and acorns to become Oak trees. The Love that is who we really are; is also the essence of everything we see, the essence of all that is. The Heart Resonance of Pacha Mama, is the Heart Resonance of the Universe, is the Heart Resonance of You, is the Heart Resonance of Love. 

This Heart Resonance is the very place that we can co-create the life we dream of a life that is purposeful, a life full of Love and gratitude, a life that makes us feel alive and of service to Love. For when we are in that Heart Resonance space we are in Divine Alignment; we are in resonance with Love, with the force that created the universe. That is the resonance of growth, expansion, imagination, innovation, wisdom and peace. When we align with that force, Love, we can live in a place of heart resonance. A place where the universe is whispering “grow, grow”. 

Letting go of the old stories and beliefs are part of the healing that we do to be more fully able to live from a heart resonance of Love. Shamanic sound healing is an amazing way to quicken the letting go and empower us to be our highest expression of Love. I will be channeling a Sound Healing Bath for the Equinox later this month. The intention of the Sounds, Vibrations and Light Language will be to bring us back into Divine Alignment, by helping us let go of the old stories and beliefs. The energies and attunements will empower us to be our highest expression of Love. I would be honored if you joined us. Equinox Sound Healing – Divine Alignment

Message from the Ancients

 

We are the anchors of light in a time before time. In a place of above and below. In a place of emptiness yet fullness. We hold and direct the streams of light emanating from the creator. 

Tap into your perfect stream and open to the wisdom we intend to transfer. Open to the healing, guiding, ever evolving light of higher consciousness. Allow the sounds and vibrations of past, present and future to heal on all time lines and all dimensions. Allow the higher dimensional light to unfold a new aspect of your DNA, propelling you into the next evolution of humanity, opening up to Higher and higher dimensions. 

Anchor your hearts desire into the stream of creation, allow the Ancient of days to co-create with you.  Call to us when you need guidance, support, clarity, fuel for the fire of action. Call to us when you are unsure of your next steps or when you are afraid. Call to us when you need grounding, when you need centering, when you need wisdom. Call to us so that we can remind you, that you are just as us; powerful beings of love, ready to take the next steps on your ascension path. Trust, surrender and allow; this is all that is needed from you for the Divine to begin to flow through you, as you; for it is who you really are. 

Message from White Buffalo Calf Woman to the Earth Goddess

Be in flow with Gaia, attend to the seasons to optimize your ability to flow with the twists and turns of life. Nurture your inner world as you would a garden, from the seeds being planted in the dark, to the seedlings that begin to peek through. Know that you are in harmony with the Great Mother, know that your connection to her anchors your dreams into her reality, into her matrix.

Your dreams feed the dreams of the collective and are anchoring in the changes that you dream of as light workers. You are co-creating the New Earth. Your dreams are becoming manifest. Focus your attention on the areas of growth and change. Feed the seeds that you wish to flourish. Allow the seedlings of fear, envy, greed to parish by attending to where you put your focus, your attention, your energy.

Spend time within to prepare for the seeds of new growth. Connect deeply to the Mothers Matrix and anchor your dreams. Plant your seeds. Create. Become. Be the Goddess of the Earth that you already are.

 

Pink Full Moon Blessing from Pacha Mama, Mama Killa, Blue Star & Me

As we open to the transformational energies that are being ushered in, the beautiful pink full moon reminds us to release what no longer serves. Reminding us that letting go is followed by a filling up.

Last night Mama Killa, our beautiful moon, was full; drawing us near, filling us with awe and wonder.  A symphony of crickets, frogs, hoots, pups and the crackle of the fire provided a healing, cleansing, upgrading melody from Pacha Mama, Mother Earth. A Light Language song from a Blue Star came through to add to the magic.

So, if you feel called, settle in, allow the sounds to carry you inward and be open to revelation, insight and the Love that is always closer than close.

With Munay and Gratitude,

Autumn

Ease and Grace?

Ease and Grace?

Sitting outside, connecting with Pacha Mama, on this 60 degree February morning, marveling at the first glimpses of spring starting to peek out. When a crow caught my attention, cawing, as if to say transformation is at hand. My first thought was Great Spirit let it be with ease and grace please!  And I immediately heard… Why don’t you just choose the easier way, just let go and trust.

Wow! Right? What if I just take the next step that is in front of me? Rather than trying to find another way. Or worrying about “what ifs”. Or concerning myself with how that person might feel or what might happen there. What if I /we just trusted; trusted our self, trusted Spirit.

What if the ease and grace comes from our decisions, our choices. Choosing to stay connected, choosing to follow the nudging and synchronicities. Choosing to let go of things that are not good for us, the people, situations, past hurts, resentments…. Maybe the struggle, the suffering, the confusion comes from trying to figure it all out. From the need to “know”.

Today the crow came to say trust; trust that part of you that is divine, that part that is connected to All That Is. With a beginners mind, take the next step presented and trust. Instead of asking for Ease and Grace, let’s give our selves the freedom to live in ease and grace. Isn’t that who we really are?

Much Munay!

Autumn & My Crow Friend

Emerging Grid Portal

Emerging Grid Portal by Liz Simmerman of Reiki Divine Energetics

Here’s Liz Simmerman’s latest painting. (See more about Liz at Reiki Divine Energetics) To me this painting speaks of the new, higher connection to the grid of Universal Love and Unity. We are being asked to clear away more and more of what no longer serves, so that we can connect at a higher level.

Why? Because creation is calling us to be of service, to anchor in and share the Love the is ever abundant, but often overlooked. And as times feel harder and so many still suffer, Light Workers are being asked to step up and shine….

Shine the Love of the Universe, of Creation. Shine so bright that it radiates around the world, all the while believing that Heaven on Earth can happen! One life, one light at a time.

Liz and I would be honored if you could take a few minutes to listen and meditate on the painting and open yourself to this new higher amazing connection… and let your light shine.

Let us be the Change! And so it is! Ho!

Much Munay (Love)!

Remembering Wisdom from the Hawk

A beautiful October day, the leaves are changing colors, it’s the perfect temperature, warm breeze in the air. There is silence everywhere, even amidst all the noise. The water from the sprinkler bringing beautiful birds, chirping joyfully, as they take a quick bath.

I looked up to admire the amazing art work of the creator and in a near by tree was the most beautiful hawk. She was amazing, she looked me in the eye and then flew off. Her wings were stripped at the edges and must have stretched out 4 feet. She didn’t even need to flap, she just seemed to glide though the trees and disappeared.

I caught myself thinking, where’s your nest? I felt her say why do you need to know where my nest is? To which I quiet smirkily replied, so I can connect with you better. She in all her wisdom said “that’s what you’re mind needs, all your soul needs us to connect with me right now to take a deep breath and feel my presence. Feel that there is no separation, only the separation your mind creates. Your mind wants to understand and see and look and have a place to go. Your spirit doesn’t need that.”

So I took a deep breath and connected with that amazing creature. I felt her power, her confidence, her certainty. And perhaps more importantly, I felt the unity. She knows and remembers, always, that she is an intricate part of creation. That she isn’t separate. That the same amazingly powerful creative force that created her, is also in her, actually is her. Just like it is who we really are at our core, beyond all the stories of the mind.

That amazing creature had come to remind me, remind us, that we can stop and take a deep breath, let go of all the thoughts and be right here, right now, in this moment. Leaning into, sensing, looking for that unity, that non-duality. There is no separation. Feel it. Allow yourself to be That.

Right now as I’m writing this and remembering the experience, reliving it, feeling connecting again to that magnificent hawk. Then the thoughts come back. “You can’t write this on your blog. Are you crazy?” And for a moment I lost that unity, that connection. Then I remembered. Oh crazy ego, you really don’t get it do you? Being vulnerable is what makes us human, allows us to have deeper connections. Vulnerability is the cost of Freedom. And isn’t it worth it!!

All we have to do is remembered with our heart. Take a deep breath, again, and connect, feel who we really are.

Much Munay! (Much Love!)
Autumn and Pablo

Perfection; Wisdom from a Confederate Rose

It’s a grey cloudy windy day; threats of the thunder storms and tornadoes, somehow the world seems a little busier, and a little more chaotic. And yet when I came home and I came out to see the most magnificent beautiful pink Confederate Rose. I stopped for a moment, taking a deep breath and just noticing how beautiful it is and all its perfection.

Standing there, in the midst of all this yucky day is perfection; reminding me that there is always, always perfection to be found. Even when things feel hard, when everything is just not quite right, when things are chaotic and changing, when people don’t act right, when we don’t think right, shoot when we don’t act right in the midst of all of that is perfection, everywhere, in each moment. We just take a deep enough breath to be present, to notice the perfection. It’s everywhere. It’s in the beautiful pink Confederate Rose standing up and outstretched in my front yard. It’s in our four-legged friends eyes when we come home from work. It’s in the smile of a little child, full of innocence and joy. It’s in the smell in the wind; the smell that says rain is coming. It’s in the feelings that are evoked by all these beautiful things. It’s in the laughter, it’s in the connections. It’s in the Love. Everywhere we look, no matter what.

Take a deep breath and become fully present. We can see, feel and we can experience the perfection. In fact, we can sense and if we are willing, fully step into that perfection.

I am perfection. You are. We all are, perfection. At the core of who we are, beyond all the stories in our heads, we are that perfection; perfection having a human experience.

And in that humanness, when we forget about the perfection, all we need do is breathe deeply, bring out attention to this moment and look, listen, feel and be the perfection. It’s that simple and yet difficult to master. And isn’t that even perfect?

Now back to my garden. Much Love!

Thought I’d share a pic of the perfect confederate rose.
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