Forgiveness vs Suffering

I am struggling this morning to forgive someone, I went into meditation to ask for help, after a little bit I heard go write about it and share. I sense they wanted me to share this because so many of us are having things come up in this season of change, that we have a choice about. We either decide to hold the pain and all the yucky, humiliating and shameful stories we tell ourselves about that thing. Or we can forgive. 

So, let’s talk about forgiveness for a bit. Forgiveness is NOT saying to another it’s ok what you did to me. Hear me, not that!!! Forgiveness is really “I am not going to let what you did to me hurt me over and over again”. I am not going to run my life based on untrue things that you told me or that I inferred. I am not going to keep suffering, while you stand by unaware that you have even done anything wrong. I am not going to let the devistating pain you left me with ruin m y life. I am going to set my self free from all that pain and struggle by forgiving you, by detaching from what you did and seeing from a higher perspective. 

All are joined in the oneness of love. So any attack I have on another is an attack on myself. Energetically and spiritually anger, vengefulness, hate filled thoughts are acts of attack. So we are sending that yuck to ourselves, as well as drawing more of that into our lives, to prove the story we are telling ourselves. You’ve heard that saying that resentment is like taking poison hoping the other person gets sick… It just doesn’t work.

Psychologically, if I believe that someone hurt me, then I also believe in the consequences of that hurtful act. For example, If someone tells you that you are not good enough, and you believe them, then you start to feel not good enough and act in ways that make you seem not good enough. 

So, it becomes a question of faith. Am I going to believe in this unloving act as truth and then build my life and choices around that hurt. Or am I going to believe in the Love that created the Universe, the Love that connects us all, the Love that is who each of us is at our core.  And allow that Love to flow through me every day  and shoot for every minute? Do I put my faith in the loneliness or enteral connection? Do I believe in my unworthiness or do I believe in the worthiness of every child, woman and man? Do I put my faith in separation and injustice or do I believe that we are all one and we can figure this out? Where are you putting your faith?

Forgiveness does not mean that you allow yourself to be taken advantage of or used. Forgiveness holds within it Discernment. The discernment, without judgement for everyone is one their own path, to say this person, place or thing isn’t good for me. That’s all it is “this isn’t good for me”. Unfortunately, we humans have been taught that we must justify such things, which becomes a whole other ego story to create more pain. Simply allowing “this isn’t good for me” to be true and then taking LOVING action to honor that knowing.

During this season of our evolution as a species we are being asked to let go of all the old stories, hurts and limitation. Because we need to change the world. That is why we decided to be here on Mother Earth at such a tumultuous time of change. So that we can be Love. So that we can do our work and therefore impact the whole. Because we are all one at our core. 

So if you are struggling with forgiveness this morning, I hope this helps. It most certainly helped me to share about it with you. Huh, my guides were right on the mark. Imagine that! Spirit, Love sent the answer. Love sent the miracle. The miracle is when I shift my attention to Love! 

The miracle is when we shift our attention to Love!

My wish for you my fellow journeyers is freedom, forgiveness and a shift in your attention to Love. Just for today or even just for this minute. And in the next moment, deciding again.

Much Love! 

Autumn

Message from White Buffalo Calf Woman to the Earth Goddess

Be in flow with Gaia, attend to the seasons to optimize your ability to flow with the twists and turns of life. Nurture your inner world as you would a garden, from the seeds being planted in the dark, to the seedlings that begin to peek through. Know that you are in harmony with the Great Mother, know that your connection to her anchors your dreams into her reality, into her matrix.

Your dreams feed the dreams of the collective and are anchoring in the changes that you dream of as light workers. You are co-creating the New Earth. Your dreams are becoming manifest. Focus your attention on the areas of growth and change. Feed the seeds that you wish to flourish. Allow the seedlings of fear, envy, greed to parish by attending to where you put your focus, your attention, your energy.

Spend time within to prepare for the seeds of new growth. Connect deeply to the Mothers Matrix and anchor your dreams. Plant your seeds. Create. Become. Be the Goddess of the Earth that you already are.

 

Pink Full Moon Blessing from Pacha Mama, Mama Killa, Blue Star & Me

As we open to the transformational energies that are being ushered in, the beautiful pink full moon reminds us to release what no longer serves. Reminding us that letting go is followed by a filling up.

Last night Mama Killa, our beautiful moon, was full; drawing us near, filling us with awe and wonder.  A symphony of crickets, frogs, hoots, pups and the crackle of the fire provided a healing, cleansing, upgrading melody from Pacha Mama, Mother Earth. A Light Language song from a Blue Star came through to add to the magic.

So, if you feel called, settle in, allow the sounds to carry you inward and be open to revelation, insight and the Love that is always closer than close.

With Munay and Gratitude,

Autumn

Sunrise, Being the Light

It is with a heavy heart that I write this. So much pain, fear, hate in the world today. So much seperation. Yet beyond that sadness, I can feel Hope. Hope that Love can, will, has to overcome. That We, humans, have the ability to reach a place of Higher Consciousness. That we can live in a place where all life is sacred, where all of creation is intrinsically connected and divinely unseperable.

MLK’s quote keeps coming to mind lately….”I refuse to accept the view that mankind is so tragically bound to the starless midnight of racism and war that the bright daybreak of peace and brotherhood can never become a reality… I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word.” Martin Luther King Jr.

Remember, darkness can not chase out darkness. WE, you and I, have to be the light. We need to be the change we want to see. We are the one’s we have been waiting for. We can wish others would change. But the only place we can really affect change, serious change is with in. Einstein said that “no problem can be solved from the same consciousness that created it”. When we react from fear, sadness, hate we are just perpetuating the problem.

We have to live from a place of Love. A place of wisdom and understanding that we are all connected. We are all brothers and sisters. We all carry the consciousness of Divinity within us. It is our mission here on earth today to let that Higher Consciousness guide our steps.

Let us bring peace to all the situations we encounter. Let us bring our wholehearted intention to evolve. Let us relate to each other by deeply listening, letting go of what we think we already know and be open to what we may learn, see, sense together. Let us get to know the shadow parts of our selves so that we can bring our whole selves to the mission of bringing heaven to earth.  And let us each take full responsibility for ourselves. Let us hold each other and ourselves accountable for our actions, our choices, our life. Most of all we have to work to stay out of the stories, out of the past and be present with everything that is right here, right now.

My prayer today is that each of us will be the sun rising at daybreak in a world that seems lost in the starless night.

Much Munay!

Autumn

 

Ease and Grace?

Ease and Grace?

Sitting outside, connecting with Pacha Mama, on this 60 degree February morning, marveling at the first glimpses of spring starting to peek out. When a crow caught my attention, cawing, as if to say transformation is at hand. My first thought was Great Spirit let it be with ease and grace please!  And I immediately heard… Why don’t you just choose the easier way, just let go and trust.

Wow! Right? What if I just take the next step that is in front of me? Rather than trying to find another way. Or worrying about “what ifs”. Or concerning myself with how that person might feel or what might happen there. What if I /we just trusted; trusted our self, trusted Spirit.

What if the ease and grace comes from our decisions, our choices. Choosing to stay connected, choosing to follow the nudging and synchronicities. Choosing to let go of things that are not good for us, the people, situations, past hurts, resentments…. Maybe the struggle, the suffering, the confusion comes from trying to figure it all out. From the need to “know”.

Today the crow came to say trust; trust that part of you that is divine, that part that is connected to All That Is. With a beginners mind, take the next step presented and trust. Instead of asking for Ease and Grace, let’s give our selves the freedom to live in ease and grace. Isn’t that who we really are?

Much Munay!

Autumn & My Crow Friend

Gentleness and Grace

My attempt at putting my beloved Stag Spirit Animal on paper.

Deer Medicine

What magnifican creatures! Deer captures our attention with its beauty and grace. And the mighty stag is a symbol of the heart and is often used to represent the Goddess. When deer comes into our life they remind us to sink deep into who we really are, at our heart… that place of innocence, deep love and grace. They remind us to live in equanimity, in balance. And to spend time in meditation, facing into the depth.

Deer are one of the most adaptable mammals; they live on all but one continent and in every climate. Flexibility, adaptability is at the core of our spiritual path. To find Spirit in each moment we have to be willing to let go of every thing we think we know; to look again with wonder and curiosity. Deer medicine assists us in our ability to go with the flow. Call in Deer is you feel your getting stuck in a rut or struggling with change.

The gentleness, innocence and grace of the deer mystify many. Deer reminds us to offer gentleness and grace to others and ourselves. As we do our personal work, the work of looking within, facing our shadow, embracing our own Divinity; we must approach our selves with gentleness, compassion and grace. This stance allows us to embrace all of ourselves, even our shadow parts. Bringing us more into fullness and freedom.

Antlers are symbolic of antennae; connecting to higher realms and symbolize Higher Wisdom. Reminding us to pay attention to inner feelings, intuitions. Stags shed their antlers  every year; symbolizing new perspectives and gentle growth. The antlers grow from behind the eye, further strengthening the message to pay attention to inner sight.

Our ancestors included deer in their stories and myths to represent new beginnings. Call Deer to help usher in new phases with innocence, gentleness and flexibility.

 

 

 

 

 

Emerging Grid Portal

Emerging Grid Portal by Liz Simmerman of Reiki Divine Energetics

Here’s Liz Simmerman’s latest painting. (See more about Liz at Reiki Divine Energetics) To me this painting speaks of the new, higher connection to the grid of Universal Love and Unity. We are being asked to clear away more and more of what no longer serves, so that we can connect at a higher level.

Why? Because creation is calling us to be of service, to anchor in and share the Love the is ever abundant, but often overlooked. And as times feel harder and so many still suffer, Light Workers are being asked to step up and shine….

Shine the Love of the Universe, of Creation. Shine so bright that it radiates around the world, all the while believing that Heaven on Earth can happen! One life, one light at a time.

Liz and I would be honored if you could take a few minutes to listen and meditate on the painting and open yourself to this new higher amazing connection… and let your light shine.

Let us be the Change! And so it is! Ho!

Much Munay (Love)!

Remembering Wisdom from the Hawk

A beautiful October day, the leaves are changing colors, it’s the perfect temperature, warm breeze in the air. There is silence everywhere, even amidst all the noise. The water from the sprinkler bringing beautiful birds, chirping joyfully, as they take a quick bath.

I looked up to admire the amazing art work of the creator and in a near by tree was the most beautiful hawk. She was amazing, she looked me in the eye and then flew off. Her wings were stripped at the edges and must have stretched out 4 feet. She didn’t even need to flap, she just seemed to glide though the trees and disappeared.

I caught myself thinking, where’s your nest? I felt her say why do you need to know where my nest is? To which I quiet smirkily replied, so I can connect with you better. She in all her wisdom said “that’s what you’re mind needs, all your soul needs us to connect with me right now to take a deep breath and feel my presence. Feel that there is no separation, only the separation your mind creates. Your mind wants to understand and see and look and have a place to go. Your spirit doesn’t need that.”

So I took a deep breath and connected with that amazing creature. I felt her power, her confidence, her certainty. And perhaps more importantly, I felt the unity. She knows and remembers, always, that she is an intricate part of creation. That she isn’t separate. That the same amazingly powerful creative force that created her, is also in her, actually is her. Just like it is who we really are at our core, beyond all the stories of the mind.

That amazing creature had come to remind me, remind us, that we can stop and take a deep breath, let go of all the thoughts and be right here, right now, in this moment. Leaning into, sensing, looking for that unity, that non-duality. There is no separation. Feel it. Allow yourself to be That.

Right now as I’m writing this and remembering the experience, reliving it, feeling connecting again to that magnificent hawk. Then the thoughts come back. “You can’t write this on your blog. Are you crazy?” And for a moment I lost that unity, that connection. Then I remembered. Oh crazy ego, you really don’t get it do you? Being vulnerable is what makes us human, allows us to have deeper connections. Vulnerability is the cost of Freedom. And isn’t it worth it!!

All we have to do is remembered with our heart. Take a deep breath, again, and connect, feel who we really are.

Much Munay! (Much Love!)
Autumn and Pablo

How to Use Your Wand or Rattle

I am often asked “how do I use my wand?”. Here are a few ideas.

Mediate with your wand/rattle; allow the energies of the wand/rattle to join with you.

Infuse a particular intention or goal into the wand/rattle and allow it to aid you in your journey.

Wear your mini-wand to aid your journey throughout the day and bring needed enlightened energies into your relationships, projects or endeavors.

Use your wand or rattle to remove negative energies from the etheric field; just set your intention and run the wand/rattle around your body .

Guide your wand or rattle to send healing energies into the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual fields.
Place your wand or rattle on your alter to anchor your spiritual aspirations.

Allow your wand or rattle to become part of your spiritual experience, helping to anchor & amplify spiritual growth, trust and love.

Take your rattle to a fire or drum circle and allow the rattle’s sound and energy to assist in building sacred space.

Allow your wand/rattle to assist you in grounding and connecting with Pacha Mama (Mother Earth).

These are but of few of the ways you can use your wand or rattle. Remember there is no wrong way, let your intuition and imagination guide you and your wand/rattle on your journey ‘there’.

Much Love!

Perfection; Wisdom from a Confederate Rose

It’s a grey cloudy windy day; threats of the thunder storms and tornadoes, somehow the world seems a little busier, and a little more chaotic. And yet when I came home and I came out to see the most magnificent beautiful pink Confederate Rose. I stopped for a moment, taking a deep breath and just noticing how beautiful it is and all its perfection.

Standing there, in the midst of all this yucky day is perfection; reminding me that there is always, always perfection to be found. Even when things feel hard, when everything is just not quite right, when things are chaotic and changing, when people don’t act right, when we don’t think right, shoot when we don’t act right in the midst of all of that is perfection, everywhere, in each moment. We just take a deep enough breath to be present, to notice the perfection. It’s everywhere. It’s in the beautiful pink Confederate Rose standing up and outstretched in my front yard. It’s in our four-legged friends eyes when we come home from work. It’s in the smile of a little child, full of innocence and joy. It’s in the smell in the wind; the smell that says rain is coming. It’s in the feelings that are evoked by all these beautiful things. It’s in the laughter, it’s in the connections. It’s in the Love. Everywhere we look, no matter what.

Take a deep breath and become fully present. We can see, feel and we can experience the perfection. In fact, we can sense and if we are willing, fully step into that perfection.

I am perfection. You are. We all are, perfection. At the core of who we are, beyond all the stories in our heads, we are that perfection; perfection having a human experience.

And in that humanness, when we forget about the perfection, all we need do is breathe deeply, bring out attention to this moment and look, listen, feel and be the perfection. It’s that simple and yet difficult to master. And isn’t that even perfect?

Now back to my garden. Much Love!

Thought I’d share a pic of the perfect confederate rose.
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