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Seeking Within the Barriers to Love

A Course in Miracles states “It is not your job to seek for Love but rather to seek within yourself all the barriers you hold against its coming”. As I ponder that the past few days, I am struck but something, that Love is coming. Because really, Love is all there is. Love is the force that created the universe. Love is the force that makes Oak trees out of acorns. Love is the lifeblood of all that is. Love is the essence of you and me. Love is already here. All around us.

And yet we have so many barriers to it. Any story that we believe about who or what we are; is a barrier. Any wounds or trauma that we hold onto; is a barrier to Love. Anything that we learned about who we are based on what other people thought or did; is a barrier. Every place that we protect ourselves or dim our light or hide; is a barrier to Love. We all have barriers to love, each one of us. Some of those barriers are conscious, meaning we know about them. Some of those barriers are unconscious and we do not yet know about them. Some barriers are energetic, others are thought forms or beliefs. Some barriers are generational, barriers that our family has had for generation after generation; barriers that were taught energetically, emotionally, physically, mentally. So many barriers. Another way to say this is so much healing to do.

When we heal our issues, our wounds and our unrecognized beliefs; we make room to vibrationally hold more Love and Light. Perhaps a better way to say it is, when we heal, we become more fully who we really are. We open to and surrender to the Love that is our true essence.

One of the ways to do this healing work is through sound. Sound has the power to bring the unconscious forward to be healed and released. Sound has the power to clear away energetic blocks or barriers to being your authentic self. Sound and vibration can bring the bodies back into alignment, allowing us to hold more light, more Love. Light Language has the power to activate, attune and initiate deeper levels of understanding, wisdom and healing.

Tomorrow night, on the Equinox, as we still bask in the energy of the Full Moon, I would invite you to join me for a Sound Healing Bath as we open to the healing transformational energies that will be coming in for our personal and collective evolution. As we willingly let go of the barriers we hold to love; we allow the healing energies and sounds to bring us back in to divine alignment and balance. Balance of the light and the dark within; the feminine and masculine within and spirit and the physical. Together we align with Divine intent, with the Love that powers the Universe and blast our co-creative intentions through the equinox portal opening to our new reality.

Click here for more info and tickets.

I can’t wait to be in Sacred Space with you! And I look forward to seeing you fully embodying your highest expression of Love!

Until next time, all my Love!

Seeing from a Higher Perspective

Time seems to be flying by and there is so much going on lately in our world that I felt called to talk to you about how you are processing those things right now. Of course, the first step is to recognize and accept how we are feeling. Sometimes that can be hard, we are so used to “pushing thru” that we often can’t name what we are feeling, we just know that something is off or that we feel yucky.  

One way to get in touch with your feelings is to journal. Give yourself the prompt of right now I am feeling…. Set a timer for 5-8 mins. Then just let yourself write, no editing, no trying to understand, just write. Let whatever needs to come out, flow through your pen.  Afterward, allow yourself to read and deeply listen to what the body had to share. You may want to journal again, more purposefully this time about ways to cope with those feelings or your plan to meet the needs you see within.

Another way to tune in to your feelings is to go out in nature. Go for a leisurely walk with the intention of getting in touch with yourself and your feelings.  The trick here is to clear the mind and be open to what Pacha Mama has to say/show us. Taking a leisurely walk while thinking about your to do list, won’t help. We have been so trained to think, think, think. I’d invite you to decide and imagine/sense/feel dropping down into your heart space at the beginning of the walk and intend to be curious and open.  

After we have gotten in touch with our feelings and taken time to care for our needs; we can choose and begin seeing from a higher perspective. How do we do that? We simply take a few deep breaths and ask to see this from a place of Love or Higher Consciousness. 

Now if you’re wondering who you are asking, that’s up to you. You could ask your Higher Self. You could ask the Universe. You could ask Spirit. You could ask your helpers and guides. You could ask Gaia. You see, we are all one. Therefore, asking is asking all that is; is asking the Love that created the universe, the Love that makes the planets revolve around the Sun. The Love that makes trillions of cells form a human or a tree or a cat. Love is infinite. Love is who you are at your core; behind all the stories your mind tells you. Love is who we all are!! So ask whomever feels right to you; ask to see from a higher perspective. 

Or you could simply say, I am willing to see this differently. Willingness and intention open the door to step into a higher awareness, where everything is seen more. 

Here is a short video with Light Language and Sound to help you process your feelings and assist with stepping into a higher perspective. Higher Perspective

I do have 2 healing events in September, the info is below. I would Love to be in Sacred Space with you!

Next time we will explore more about the resonance of Pacha Mama and her creation.

Events coming in September. I’d love to be in Sacred Space with you! 

Virgo New Moon Healing Circle

Monday September 6th 7:30-9:00

Free/Love Offering

more info

Equinox Sound Healing Bath

Divine Alignment

September 21st 7:30-9:00

more info

Much Munay!

Autumn

Message from White Buffalo Calf Woman to the Earth Goddess

Be in flow with Gaia, attend to the seasons to optimize your ability to flow with the twists and turns of life. Nurture your inner world as you would a garden, from the seeds being planted in the dark, to the seedlings that begin to peek through. Know that you are in harmony with the Great Mother, know that your connection to her anchors your dreams into her reality, into her matrix.

Your dreams feed the dreams of the collective and are anchoring in the changes that you dream of as light workers. You are co-creating the New Earth. Your dreams are becoming manifest. Focus your attention on the areas of growth and change. Feed the seeds that you wish to flourish. Allow the seedlings of fear, envy, greed to parish by attending to where you put your focus, your attention, your energy.

Spend time within to prepare for the seeds of new growth. Connect deeply to the Mothers Matrix and anchor your dreams. Plant your seeds. Create. Become. Be the Goddess of the Earth that you already are.

Earth Goddess Wand

 

Embodying Love – Message from Mother Isis

Open to Love with all your heart, all of your being. Love is an energy. Love is the force that created the universe. Love is the magic that allows a tiny acorn to be transformed into the majesty of the mighty Oak.

Love is the power that causes your bodies to breath and your hearts to beat. Love is the essence of all that is. There is no thing that isn’t love at an energetic level. Love it the essence of who you are. It is always fully present within you. All that is required is that you open up to it.

Allow Love to surround you, fill you up. Allow yourselves to feel that love. As you do this, Love will begin flowing through you to others. It can only be so; as Love can only move, flow. it is never still always pushing forward, growing, evolving. As you allow Love to become who you are; that will also be true of you. Growth, transformation and alchemy are the natural consequences of embodying Love.

Sharing the Energy of Mother Isis

Sunrise, Being the Light

It is with a heavy heart that I write this. So much pain, fear, hate in the world today. So much seperation. Yet beyond that sadness, I can feel Hope. Hope that Love can, will, has to overcome. That We, humans, have the ability to reach a place of Higher Consciousness. That we can live in a place where all life is sacred, where all of creation is intrinsically connected and divinely unseperable.

MLK’s quote keeps coming to mind lately….”I refuse to accept the view that mankind is so tragically bound to the starless midnight of racism and war that the bright daybreak of peace and brotherhood can never become a reality… I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word.” Martin Luther King Jr.

Remember, darkness can not chase out darkness. WE, you and I, have to be the light. We need to be the change we want to see. We are the one’s we have been waiting for. We can wish others would change. But the only place we can really affect change, serious change is with in. Einstein said that “no problem can be solved from the same consciousness that created it”. When we react from fear, sadness, hate we are just perpetuating the problem.

We have to live from a place of Love. A place of wisdom and understanding that we are all connected. We are all brothers and sisters. We all carry the consciousness of Divinity within us. It is our mission here on earth today to let that Higher Consciousness guide our steps.

Let us bring peace to all the situations we encounter. Let us bring our wholehearted intention to evolve. Let us relate to each other by deeply listening, letting go of what we think we already know and be open to what we may learn, see, sense together. Let us get to know the shadow parts of our selves so that we can bring our whole selves to the mission of bringing heaven to earth.  And let us each take full responsibility for ourselves. Let us hold each other and ourselves accountable for our actions, our choices, our life. Most of all we have to work to stay out of the stories, out of the past and be present with everything that is right here, right now.

My prayer today is that each of us will be the sun rising at daybreak in a world that seems lost in the starless night.

Much Munay!

Autumn

 

Ease and Grace?

Ease and Grace?

Sitting outside, connecting with Pacha Mama, on this 60 degree February morning, marveling at the first glimpses of spring starting to peek out. When a crow caught my attention, cawing, as if to say transformation is at hand. My first thought was Great Spirit let it be with ease and grace please!  And I immediately heard… Why don’t you just choose the easier way, just let go and trust.

Wow! Right? What if I just take the next step that is in front of me? Rather than trying to find another way. Or worrying about “what ifs”. Or concerning myself with how that person might feel or what might happen there. What if I /we just trusted; trusted our self, trusted Spirit.

What if the ease and grace comes from our decisions, our choices. Choosing to stay connected, choosing to follow the nudging and synchronicities. Choosing to let go of things that are not good for us, the people, situations, past hurts, resentments…. Maybe the struggle, the suffering, the confusion comes from trying to figure it all out. From the need to “know”.

Today the crow came to say trust; trust that part of you that is divine, that part that is connected to All That Is. With a beginners mind, take the next step presented and trust. Instead of asking for Ease and Grace, let’s give our selves the freedom to live in ease and grace. Isn’t that who we really are?

Much Munay!

Autumn & My Crow Friend

Remembering Wisdom from the Hawk

A beautiful October day, the leaves are changing colors, it’s the perfect temperature, warm breeze in the air. There is silence everywhere, even amidst all the noise. The water from the sprinkler bringing beautiful birds, chirping joyfully, as they take a quick bath.

I looked up to admire the amazing art work of the creator and in a near by tree was the most beautiful hawk. She was amazing, she looked me in the eye and then flew off. Her wings were stripped at the edges and must have stretched out 4 feet. She didn’t even need to flap, she just seemed to glide though the trees and disappeared.

I caught myself thinking, where’s your nest? I felt her say why do you need to know where my nest is? To which I quiet smirkily replied, so I can connect with you better. She in all her wisdom said “that’s what you’re mind needs, all your soul needs us to connect with me right now to take a deep breath and feel my presence. Feel that there is no separation, only the separation your mind creates. Your mind wants to understand and see and look and have a place to go. Your spirit doesn’t need that.”

So I took a deep breath and connected with that amazing creature. I felt her power, her confidence, her certainty. And perhaps more importantly, I felt the unity. She knows and remembers, always, that she is an intricate part of creation. That she isn’t separate. That the same amazingly powerful creative force that created her, is also in her, actually is her. Just like it is who we really are at our core, beyond all the stories of the mind.

That amazing creature had come to remind me, remind us, that we can stop and take a deep breath, let go of all the thoughts and be right here, right now, in this moment. Leaning into, sensing, looking for that unity, that non-duality. There is no separation. Feel it. Allow yourself to be That.

Right now as I’m writing this and remembering the experience, reliving it, feeling connecting again to that magnificent hawk. Then the thoughts come back. “You can’t write this on your blog. Are you crazy?” And for a moment I lost that unity, that connection. Then I remembered. Oh crazy ego, you really don’t get it do you? Being vulnerable is what makes us human, allows us to have deeper connections. Vulnerability is the cost of Freedom. And isn’t it worth it!!

All we have to do is remembered with our heart. Take a deep breath, again, and connect, feel who we really are.

Much Munay! (Much Love!)
Autumn and Pablo

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Wisdom from Serpent on Forgiveness

Outside on this beautiful warm breezy day. Enjoying the beautiful sweet smells of summer. Finally transplanting some cuttings from last year. Deeply connecting with PachaMama, so amazed at feeling of unity with the mother and all of creation. And as I pulled the plant out of its pot, out fell a baby snake. I caught my breath as i studied him, he was beautiful, silvery, maybe 5-6 inches long.

Great Serpent, reminding me to shed the past as he sheds his skin, over and over and over… Sometimes struggling to set himself free, only to continue growing so he can do it again. Holding on to the past keeps us from growing; just as the serpent can’t grow without shedding its skin. Holding on to the past keeps us from being able to see the opportunists right in front of us. Opportunities to grow, to be vulnerable, to truly connect. Opportunities to change the world; right here in our little corner of the world but also by raising our own consciousness we are raising the consciousness of the collective conscious; the part of us that is one with all of creation. Holding on to the past keeps us from being able to see opportunities to mend relationships. It keeps us from finding our passions. Holding on to the past makes us tired, stressed and often physically sick.

The Peruvian Shamans teach that the south direction is the energy of the serpent. A place of shedding our past as the serpent sheds its skin. Other more westernized traditions say the south is the direction of the wounded child. Either way the process is the same, forgiveness. I read a great quote today; “life is much easier if you learn to accept the apology that was never given” R Brault. And he is right! Life does get easier when we forgive.

Remember forgiveness is not something we do for the other, it is something that we give to ourselves; “I will not let what you did keep hurting me over and over”. Forgiveness releases the person doing the forgiving. It does not condone or approve of the behavior, it simply stops the hurt from continuing to live and grow inside us. We can speak our truth, and then we must then be willing to let it go. Have no expectation of what others “should” do… Just let it go. The only thing I have any control over is myself, my choices, my thoughts, my behavior…. Control over how I want to live my life. What I want to transmit to others. How I want others to feel when I am with them or when they think of me.

The Serpent doesn’t look back at his past, rather he sheds his skin, wiggling, working his way free of that which no longer serves him and then taking that opportunity to grow. Just as our past has presented us struggles, hurts and disappointments…Yet when we take an honest look back, we are overwhelmed by gratitude for the plethora of opportunities to grow. These growth opportunities appear, become manifest, when we let go of the past and become fully present. In this moment we can see how all of the struggles of the past have come together to make us this unique expression of the Divine.

Each of those struggles made us who we are today. Some of the greatest teachers in my life have been those that hurt me, because those struggles made me who I am. Hurts can be transformed into amazing gifts that Spirit can use. So Serpent reminds us to set ourselves free. Free from the past, more available for the present, for the opportunities.

One of my favorite stones to wear when I am working to forgive and let go is peridot. Peridot, much like the serpent, teaches that holding onto people and the past is counterproductive. It cleanses and activates the heart and solar plexus; allowing higher energies to come through. Here are a couple of peridot mini-wands on my site. Another great stone for forgiveness, especially forgiving the self, is rose quartz. It is called the stone of unconditional love and infinite peace. It purifies and opens the heart and brings deep healing and love.

A completely different way of forgiving is through visualization or meditation, my wonderful Reiki Teacher and dear sweet friend, Linda Backes has an amazing forgiveness meditation available on her website at www.aradiantlife.com. Her soothing voice and the channeled music will guide you through the steps of forgiveness. Including forgiving yourself, which is an aspect that we so often forget or find difficult.

No matter how you get there, give yourself the gift of forgiveness; allow yourself to feel the freedom that comes from being able to be present in this moment, available for all that life has to offer, available for connection with others and with creation. Freedom to be who you really are.

Much Munay!

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This Moment; Is There Really Anything Else?

Watering the hydrangea and taking a moment to unwind, relax, reconnect to Pachamama and to Source. Just as I realize I’m still thinking I see Pablo, my beloved four legged. He is paying attention to something, paying attention with his whole being. He is listening intently; to the rustle of leaves in the woods as the deer make their nightly run to the watering whole, to the laughter of little children down the street, to the birds singing goodnight to the sun, to the beginning chorus of chirps and croaks. He is paying attention completely to how things smell, which way the wind is blowing, how the lightning bugs start showing up here and there. He is completely aware of the chirps of his arch nemesis the squirrel, the sound of the cardinals wings as he flies over head.

I realize that is what being completely present, in the moment, is. Pablo is always right here in this moment, sensing into the moment with all of his being. And thanks to Pablo, for that moment so was I.

I can’t help but wonder now as I’m typing this… How much are we, you and I, really missing all the time, everyday? We are all looking for those “once in a lifetime” moments. But what if every moment is one of those, awe inspiring, attuned with all of creation moments? What if we allowed ourselves to see the true, good and beautiful in each moment? To pay attention with our whole being?

I’m going back right now as I’m sure the chorus of chirps and croaks is in full swing, and I don’t want to miss another second. Take your moments today, remember who you really are and why you are really here and listen to creation sing in celebration.IMG_0244

Pablo and his favorite kitty BG. 

Four Legged Wisdom; Lessons for Living

Going outside with a cup of coffee. Needing to ground, to let go… To connect to Pachamama, the mother. To creation. To the powerful deeply rooted trees, that are just starting to show the tiniest bud, the promise of things to come. To Inti TiTi, the beautiful sun, as it turns the sky pink and purple, bidding farewell unti tomorrow. To the birds that are busy scurrying and singing the songs of spring. To all the four legged creatures that are enlivened, inspired by that same promise of new life. Feeling so grateful and grounded; at peace…

And charging around the corner comes, Pablo, my beloved four legged, chasing his arch nemesis (nemeses in plural?) the squirrel. And the thought came to me. What if we all lived life like Pablo?

What if we loved with our whole heart, our whole being? Never holding a grudge. Never letting a bad day get in our way.

What if we chased the most important thing (or the squirrel) with everything we have, with every drop of love in our soul?  What if we have a whole hearted intention to transform; ourselves and as a drop in the ocean, the world and we never stop chasing that, no matter how many times we miss the mark?

What if we take risks, (like trying to follow the squirrel up the tree or speaking vulnerably and authentically from the deepest part of ourselves) knowing that our growth will come from those risks. Knowing that to truly Become,  we must risk being vulnerable, transparent, authentic…

What if we begin every moment with complete and utter belief that any thing is possible?  Leaving behind all of the limitations we think we already know? Using every “failure” or miss step as information to improve, to grow, to transform?

What if we always share our love, attention, affection with those we love? Always, no matter what. Because we know that we live in them even more than we can imagine.

What if we listen with our whole being? What if we smell every smell as if it is important? What if we could be, right here, right now, completely? What would we see? What would we sense? What would we know?

And what if we never held on to hurt feelings? Or anger? What if we live in constant resolution? Always clearing up any tension or misunderstanding?

And then when it’s time to rest. What if we really rested. Completely let go of all the cares of the day and sank into being? Just being. Knowing that we need rejuvenation, renewal, stillness; to be fully ready to do it all again tomorrow.

We are told that we, humans, are higher beings, we posses the ability to reason, create, communicate… And those are absolutely wonderful things! But what if we join our gifts with these practices that are mistakingly called “lower”. What if we whole heartedly live into what my teacher, Craig Hamilton calls “Principles of Evolutionary Culture”  but Pablo calls living, being? How would the world change? How would our corner of the world be different? How would we impact the people we love, everyone we meet? And beyond our little corner, could all of creation be changed? Could we, you and I, begin to bring Higher Consciousness into the world? Could we begin to bring Heaven to Earth? Could we be a catalyst in the next phase of Human Evolution?

As I sense into these questions, something arises in me that feels like a big Yes! Yes we could, yes we can change our lives! Yes we can live beyond limitations! Yes, we can change the world, as we change ourselves!

That is our mission, that is our purpose here, to allow Higher Consciousness to guide us, to shine through, to touch others. And if I, if We, chase that belief with everything we have, just like Pablo chases the squirrel, we can make the world a better place. I’m stating my intention firmly there.  Will you join me?

With love,

Autumn & Pablo

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Pablo; resting…. Isn’t he cute?