Forgiveness vs Suffering

I am struggling this morning to forgive someone, I went into meditation to ask for help, after a little bit I heard go write about it and share. I sense they wanted me to share this because so many of us are having things come up in this season of change, that we have a choice about. We either decide to hold the pain and all the yucky, humiliating and shameful stories we tell ourselves about that thing. Or we can forgive. 

So, let’s talk about forgiveness for a bit. Forgiveness is NOT saying to another it’s ok what you did to me. Hear me, not that!!! Forgiveness is really “I am not going to let what you did to me hurt me over and over again”. I am not going to run my life based on untrue things that you told me or that I inferred. I am not going to keep suffering, while you stand by unaware that you have even done anything wrong. I am not going to let the devistating pain you left me with ruin m y life. I am going to set my self free from all that pain and struggle by forgiving you, by detaching from what you did and seeing from a higher perspective. 

All are joined in the oneness of love. So any attack I have on another is an attack on myself. Energetically and spiritually anger, vengefulness, hate filled thoughts are acts of attack. So we are sending that yuck to ourselves, as well as drawing more of that into our lives, to prove the story we are telling ourselves. You’ve heard that saying that resentment is like taking poison hoping the other person gets sick… It just doesn’t work.

Psychologically, if I believe that someone hurt me, then I also believe in the consequences of that hurtful act. For example, If someone tells you that you are not good enough, and you believe them, then you start to feel not good enough and act in ways that make you seem not good enough. 

So, it becomes a question of faith. Am I going to believe in this unloving act as truth and then build my life and choices around that hurt. Or am I going to believe in the Love that created the Universe, the Love that connects us all, the Love that is who each of us is at our core.  And allow that Love to flow through me every day  and shoot for every minute? Do I put my faith in the loneliness or enteral connection? Do I believe in my unworthiness or do I believe in the worthiness of every child, woman and man? Do I put my faith in separation and injustice or do I believe that we are all one and we can figure this out? Where are you putting your faith?

Forgiveness does not mean that you allow yourself to be taken advantage of or used. Forgiveness holds within it Discernment. The discernment, without judgement for everyone is one their own path, to say this person, place or thing isn’t good for me. That’s all it is “this isn’t good for me”. Unfortunately, we humans have been taught that we must justify such things, which becomes a whole other ego story to create more pain. Simply allowing “this isn’t good for me” to be true and then taking LOVING action to honor that knowing.

During this season of our evolution as a species we are being asked to let go of all the old stories, hurts and limitation. Because we need to change the world. That is why we decided to be here on Mother Earth at such a tumultuous time of change. So that we can be Love. So that we can do our work and therefore impact the whole. Because we are all one at our core. 

So if you are struggling with forgiveness this morning, I hope this helps. It most certainly helped me to share about it with you. Huh, my guides were right on the mark. Imagine that! Spirit, Love sent the answer. Love sent the miracle. The miracle is when I shift my attention to Love! 

The miracle is when we shift our attention to Love!

My wish for you my fellow journeyers is freedom, forgiveness and a shift in your attention to Love. Just for today or even just for this minute. And in the next moment, deciding again.

Much Love! 

Autumn

Seeking Within the Barriers to Love

A Course in Miracles states “It is not your job to seek for Love but rather to seek within yourself all the barriers you hold against its coming”. As I ponder that the past few days, I am struck but something, that Love is coming. Because really, Love is all there is. Love is the force that created the universe. Love is the force that makes Oak trees out of acorns. Love is the lifeblood of all that is. Love is the essence of you and me. Love is already here. All around us.

And yet we have so many barriers to it. Any story that we believe about who or what we are; is a barrier. Any wounds or trauma that we hold onto; is a barrier to Love. Anything that we learned about who we are based on what other people thought or did; is a barrier. Every place that we protect ourselves or dim our light or hide; is a barrier to Love. We all have barriers to love, each one of us. Some of those barriers are conscious, meaning we know about them. Some of those barriers are unconscious and we do not yet know about them. Some barriers are energetic, others are thought forms or beliefs. Some barriers are generational, barriers that our family has had for generation after generation; barriers that were taught energetically, emotionally, physically, mentally. So many barriers. Another way to say this is so much healing to do.

When we heal our issues, our wounds and our unrecognized beliefs; we make room to vibrationally hold more Love and Light. Perhaps a better way to say it is, when we heal, we become more fully who we really are. We open to and surrender to the Love that is our true essence.

One of the ways to do this healing work is through sound. Sound has the power to bring the unconscious forward to be healed and released. Sound has the power to clear away energetic blocks or barriers to being your authentic self. Sound and vibration can bring the bodies back into alignment, allowing us to hold more light, more Love. Light Language has the power to activate, attune and initiate deeper levels of understanding, wisdom and healing.

Tomorrow night, on the Equinox, as we still bask in the energy of the Full Moon, I would invite you to join me for a Sound Healing Bath as we open to the healing transformational energies that will be coming in for our personal and collective evolution. As we willingly let go of the barriers we hold to love; we allow the healing energies and sounds to bring us back in to divine alignment and balance. Balance of the light and the dark within; the feminine and masculine within and spirit and the physical. Together we align with Divine intent, with the Love that powers the Universe and blast our co-creative intentions through the equinox portal opening to our new reality.

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I can’t wait to be in Sacred Space with you! And I look forward to seeing you fully embodying your highest expression of Love!

Until next time, all my Love!

Heart Resonance, Love & Divine Alignment

Goddess Gaia, Pacha Mama, Mother Earth, whatever you choose to call her, resonates at a vibration of Love, of pure heart resonance. All of nature is attuned to that heart frequency; we can feel it when we are in nature, away from it all. We can fill the fullness that is present. We can feel the peace and harmony that is core to natures functioning. We can feel the unity and cooperation by all the vital, equally important, equally respected aspects of nature.

 Our human bodies are designed to resonate at that same frequency, the frequency of Love, the frequency of Growth, the frequency Peace; just like all of nature does. 

Take a minute to think of your favorite spot in nature. Breathing slowly and deeply, let yourself imagine it, picture it in your mind. Imagine that you can hear the sounds of your favorite spot out with the Mother. Imagine that you feel the creatures that inhabit that land. Imagine that your senses are experiencing that beloved part of the Mother, feeling the wind, smelling the flowers, tasting the freshness of the air. Allow yourself to remember all the reasons you love that spot as you take 4 or 5 more slow deep breaths. 

Now notice your heart space. Do you feel gratitude, love, peace, aliveness? Just from spending a few minutes thinking about your favorite place to connect with the Mother, with the Goddess with Love. That presence, those feelings of connection are always available to us. We just forget to sense, feel or allow it to be present in our awareness. We imagine that the walls and the floor keep us separate from the “out there”. We recognize the reality that we are never separate; the truth in our heart is that we are all One. That we are always unconsciously or consciously One. That One is Love. Walls and floors cannot keep us from that truth, nor can they keep us from feeling the support, peace, wisdom and Love that comes from that connection. Only we can keep us from that, with our thoughts. 

All the thoughts and stories that we tell ourselves about who we are and who the other is. Stories that were given to us by people who didn’t really know who they were, people who were believing in the fears and limitations they had been taught. This is what keeps us from feeling our connection with all that is, from feeling the Love that oozes out of creation. 

When we can be present, fully in this moment we can find that we are the peace, beauty and grace that we call Gaia. We are the creativity and imagination that we call Mother Earth. We are that resonance of Love. The Love that causes Mother Earth to rotate around the sun. The Love that causes flowers to bloom and acorns to become Oak trees. The Love that is who we really are; is also the essence of everything we see, the essence of all that is. The Heart Resonance of Pacha Mama, is the Heart Resonance of the Universe, is the Heart Resonance of You, is the Heart Resonance of Love. 

This Heart Resonance is the very place that we can co-create the life we dream of a life that is purposeful, a life full of Love and gratitude, a life that makes us feel alive and of service to Love. For when we are in that Heart Resonance space we are in Divine Alignment; we are in resonance with Love, with the force that created the universe. That is the resonance of growth, expansion, imagination, innovation, wisdom and peace. When we align with that force, Love, we can live in a place of heart resonance. A place where the universe is whispering “grow, grow”. 

Letting go of the old stories and beliefs are part of the healing that we do to be more fully able to live from a heart resonance of Love. Shamanic sound healing is an amazing way to quicken the letting go and empower us to be our highest expression of Love. I will be channeling a Sound Healing Bath for the Equinox later this month. The intention of the Sounds, Vibrations and Light Language will be to bring us back into Divine Alignment, by helping us let go of the old stories and beliefs. The energies and attunements will empower us to be our highest expression of Love. I would be honored if you joined us. Equinox Sound Healing – Divine Alignment

Seeing from a Higher Perspective

Time seems to be flying by and there is so much going on lately in our world that I felt called to talk to you about how you are processing those things right now. Of course, the first step is to recognize and accept how we are feeling. Sometimes that can be hard, we are so used to “pushing thru” that we often can’t name what we are feeling, we just know that something is off or that we feel yucky.  

One way to get in touch with your feelings is to journal. Give yourself the prompt of right now I am feeling…. Set a timer for 5-8 mins. Then just let yourself write, no editing, no trying to understand, just write. Let whatever needs to come out, flow through your pen.  Afterward, allow yourself to read and deeply listen to what the body had to share. You may want to journal again, more purposefully this time about ways to cope with those feelings or your plan to meet the needs you see within.

Another way to tune in to your feelings is to go out in nature. Go for a leisurely walk with the intention of getting in touch with yourself and your feelings.  The trick here is to clear the mind and be open to what Pacha Mama has to say/show us. Taking a leisurely walk while thinking about your to do list, won’t help. We have been so trained to think, think, think. I’d invite you to decide and imagine/sense/feel dropping down into your heart space at the beginning of the walk and intend to be curious and open.  

After we have gotten in touch with our feelings and taken time to care for our needs; we can choose and begin seeing from a higher perspective. How do we do that? We simply take a few deep breaths and ask to see this from a place of Love or Higher Consciousness. 

Now if you’re wondering who you are asking, that’s up to you. You could ask your Higher Self. You could ask the Universe. You could ask Spirit. You could ask your helpers and guides. You could ask Gaia. You see, we are all one. Therefore, asking is asking all that is; is asking the Love that created the universe, the Love that makes the planets revolve around the Sun. The Love that makes trillions of cells form a human or a tree or a cat. Love is infinite. Love is who you are at your core; behind all the stories your mind tells you. Love is who we all are!! So ask whomever feels right to you; ask to see from a higher perspective. 

Or you could simply say, I am willing to see this differently. Willingness and intention open the door to step into a higher awareness, where everything is seen more. 

Here is a short video with Light Language and Sound to help you process your feelings and assist with stepping into a higher perspective. Higher Perspective

I do have 2 healing events in September, the info is below. I would Love to be in Sacred Space with you!

Next time we will explore more about the resonance of Pacha Mama and her creation.

Events coming in September. I’d love to be in Sacred Space with you! 

Virgo New Moon Healing Circle

Monday September 6th 7:30-9:00

Free/Love Offering

more info

Equinox Sound Healing Bath

Divine Alignment

September 21st 7:30-9:00

more info

Much Munay!

Autumn

Rosemary Medicine Calling

A few days ago I was led to put rosemary in our ceremonial crystal grid. Throughout circle I kept rubbing and smelling the sprig I saved for myself. Since then, I find myself doing the same thing, smelling the rosemary… over and over.

So I thought I should stop and ask why. What is rosemary trying to tell me? Sometimes we call on the medicine of an herb or other plant. Sometimes they call us. And clearly Lady Rosemary is calling me today.

Of course, my logical mind wants to “go look it up” and “see what the people that know think”. But as I took another sniff I heard her say, why don’t you ask me.

Well, duh! The first thing she reminded me was that when we call on a medicine, be it plant or animal, we call to all of them. Because they are one. The second thing she reminds me is when we, you and I, smell or enjoy a plant, in a way that opens our heart; we send love to that plant. The plants actually feel us loving them. And their sense of purpose is impassioned. So, as I took another deep inhale of her magical essence; I smile because I know I am connecting to all the Rosemarys around the world and that they can feel my love!!!

With the next inhale, I find myself fully in the moment. Rosemary’s essence helps us to be more present, more in the moment. We know that is where the magic lives, in the moment. We all know that Rosemary is well known for bringing clarity, but this seems a little deeper, more profound clarity of the moment of being present.

And as I keep breathing in her goodness, I feel my nervous system slowing down, my breath becoming a little slower, and I feel more relaxed. I notice that my Third Eye seems a little more clear, more attuned.

Suddenly I feel my roots shooting down into the earth, down into Pacha Mama and find myself feeling deeply grounded and centered. My crown opens and I feel the light from above and below beginning to flow through me.

With the next inhale, she tells me that plant medicines are evolving, as we do, as the Mother does. That the medicine needed in this powerful time is a little deeper and offers more transformational energies to those who are open and searching.

She also tells me that they, the plants and the animals, love to work with us individually. She explains more, that the medicine she brings to each person can be more specifically attuned to the person, provided that we are open and curious. We tune out that attunement when we are stuck in thinking we already know what she offers.

She reminds us to approach all of creation with a beginners mind. To be open to all the possibilities, knowing there are things we can’t even yet imagine possible. She encourages us to approach each other with that same beginners mind, the place of “I don’t know but I want to”. Being open to all that is possible. All that wants to be present with us in this moment.

I hope that during this time of transformation, you will take time to go outside and connect. Connect with the Mother! Connect with her many amazing kingdoms! And connect with Rosemary, see if she helps you to feel more present and open.

I’d love to hear how you experience her.

Sending you all my Love!

Autumn Singing Deer

Crystal & Plant Grid

Rewiring the mind

Sometimes things feel so big or overwhelming or both that we forget everything we have learned, even things we thought we had “mastered”. All the old wounds that we have been working on healing get triggered. And all the crazy thoughts we “thought” we had moved past come crashing back in. That is what we humans are wired, neurologically, to do. 

You see neurons that wire together, fire together. What that means is when you think, feel and do things over and over they become neurologically wired into your brain. Think of it as walking through the woods the same way, day after day for years. That process of daily walking makes a path through the woods. The longer you make that same journey, the deeper that path becomes. 

Our brains work in a similar way; when we habitually think, feel and do the same things over and over a really deep route gets placed in our neural pathways. And just like the path through the woods; a well-worn path is much easier to navigate. (more on that later)

The really cool part about our amazing brains; is that just like in the woods we can form new pathways. Let’s say that after 30 years of walking the same path through the woods you one day decide to go a different way. What we know is that venturing off the “beaten path” can be difficult, takes more effort and more attention. In the woods, when we forge a new pathway, we have to remove the briars, move rocks, cut branches and relocate blocks to our new path. We know that a new path through the woods will take us time to create. We know that no matter how quickly we think it “should” happen, it will take as long as it takes. So, we decide we will have to make this new journey consistently and persistently before we begin seeing the actual pathway emerge.

That is how we have to create new neurological pathways in our brains. We do the new things over and over and over again. We change the way we think, which changes the way we feel, which then changes the way we behave. But this is much easier to talk about than to actually do. It is hard to do because just like in the woods there are obstacles; in our brains there a blockages too! You see all of those old stories and feelings are deeply written into our neural pathways. So, when we begin the process of transforming it takes lots of time, patience and self-compassion to build that new pathway through the “woods” of your mind. 

A really important part of this process to remember is that the old neurological pathway, the one you are working so hard to change, is still strong. Those neurological pathways in our mind are like the old path through the woods. If we get tired of blazing a new trail, we can hop over to the old pathway and have a “easier” journey. 

Even for those of us who have been working on ourselves for years step onto that old pathway sometimes. It is especially easy when we are stressed or overwhelmed or tired or lonely….. Who among us hasn’t felt those things throughout this crazy year? 

The past 3-4 months have been incredibly amazing and yet very overwhelming for me. I was doing my counseling and coaching full time. I was creating in all my spare time getting ready for a very big show. I’m taking a transformational coaching course, that is really making me dig deep. And I was purging my home of 20 years to get ready to have new floors put in. See, all of those things are really good, yes? I am blessed! And even though I know and believe that with all my heart; I found myself right back in the middle of my old trauma related ways of thinking, feeling and being. Several times. The good part is those “old ways” are not nearly as strong as they used to be, they don’t last as long as they used to and they don’t hurt others the way they used to. It is like the pathway through the woods has started the slow process of being over-grown.  

The more we work on forging those new pathways the more the “old” ways become uncomfortable. During the process of transforming more deeply into authenticity we begin to recognize that being present in the moment is where to real juice of life is. This moment is where the flow can be accessed. This moment is where love can be found, always. This moment is where we are fully our authentic selves. This moment is where we can access the reality of our Oneness. When that way of living, loving and relating becomes more normal, when those neural pathways start becoming strong, stepping into the old way of being feels uncomfortable, feels like something is missing, just feels yucky. 

So, if you find yourself sliding back into old ways of being, like I did, have compassion. Our minds will want to shame us for sliding ‘backwards” or make us feel guilty for “not working hard enough”. But really what happened is during a time of stress your mind took the path of least resistance, it took a walk on the easy path through the woods. It’s just did what human brains do. 

As I remind you to have self-compassion to offer yourself grace, I am also reminding myself. It seems that the more compassion and grace we can hold for ourselves, the more we can hold for others. Let us all with compassion and kindness recognize when we step off the path of becoming and gently step back into that place of presence, back into the moment, back into our hearts, back into grace, back into love. If we do that over and over, not only will we change, but we will change the world too. 

Sending you all much peace, joy and love!

My 10 Favorite Stones for Protection – Part 1

People ask me about protection all the time, so I decided to share my top 10 faves with you.

  1. Black Obsidian

Black Obsidian puts a protective shield around the person wearing or working with it. This shield protects from negativity, both within and without.  It offers protection against heavy or unhealthy energies coming from your environment or relations. This stone is excellent for Empaths as it offers strong protection from emotional attacks.

The inner protection is most cool! Black Obsidian assists the wearer with releasing disharmony, resentment, fear and anger. In a sense, it helps to shield us, from ourselves, our negative, heavy, habitual thoughts and feelings. Once black obsidian helps us see clearly, we can begin healing and releasing those limited aspects of our selves.

Black Obsidian is very grounding and is an excellent stone to assist with holding an intention or bringing dreams into form. And as an extra bonus, it enhances psychic gifts.

2. Lapis Lazuli

Lapis Lazuli has been used for centuries by many cultures for it’s mystical properties, one of which is protection. It offers protection during times of spiritual “work”, such as meditation, journey-ing, channeling and connecting to higher realms. When connecting to higher realms or celestial beings, Lapis Lazuli offers a psychic protection. And acts as an anchor to the physical realms during journeys out of body.

As a bonus, Lapis Lazuli clears and activates the Throat and 3rd Eye chakras. It is a stone of communication that brings truthfulness, openness and clarity.

Lapis is also an excellent stone to use when working to manifest something in your life.

3. Labradorite

Labradorite is very protective. It is especially helpful during times of change and growth as it fosters that growth while assisting with clearing and balancing during times of transformation. By helping us to identify subconscious issues and providing illumination, labradorite helps us to move forward on the spiritual path.

Labradorite invites in Light from inter-dimensional higher realms and shields us from energies that are not in alignment with energies of Higher Consciousness. It also increases Intuition, psychic development and wisdom.

Labradorite calls in the Blue, Green and Yellow Healing Rays to encourage mental, emotional and spiritual healing.

4. Amethyst

Amethyst is a powerful protective and cleansing stone. It dispels fear and anger and promotes emotional centering. Amethyst is an excellent stone for anyone struggling with an addiction of any type. It carries a calming peaceful energy.

Amethyst is also a great stone for enhancing spiritual awareness. Opens one up for deeper love, forgiveness and higher consciousness. Balances and connects physical, mental and emotional bodies linking them to the spiritual.

 

5. Fluorite

Fluorite is psychically and physically protective, it is said to become more protective the longer it is used. Fluorite encourages and sustains health, intellect and emotional well-being by purifying, restructuring, or eliminating anything within the physical or subtle bodies that is not in perfect order.

Fluorite grounds and integrates spiritual energies and quickens spiritual awakenings. Promotes spiritual and psychic wholeness.

It helps with meditation and learning to get past the “chatter” of the mind. A great stone for calming anxiety and stress.

Message from the Ancients

 

We are the anchors of light in a time before time. In a place of above and below. In a place of emptiness yet fullness. We hold and direct the streams of light emanating from the creator. 

Tap into your perfect stream and open to the wisdom we intend to transfer. Open to the healing, guiding, ever evolving light of higher consciousness. Allow the sounds and vibrations of past, present and future to heal on all time lines and all dimensions. Allow the higher dimensional light to unfold a new aspect of your DNA, propelling you into the next evolution of humanity, opening up to Higher and higher dimensions. 

Anchor your hearts desire into the stream of creation, allow the Ancient of days to co-create with you.  Call to us when you need guidance, support, clarity, fuel for the fire of action. Call to us when you are unsure of your next steps or when you are afraid. Call to us when you need grounding, when you need centering, when you need wisdom. Call to us so that we can remind you, that you are just as us; powerful beings of love, ready to take the next steps on your ascension path. Trust, surrender and allow; this is all that is needed from you for the Divine to begin to flow through you, as you; for it is who you really are. 

Message from White Buffalo Calf Woman to the Earth Goddess

Be in flow with Gaia, attend to the seasons to optimize your ability to flow with the twists and turns of life. Nurture your inner world as you would a garden, from the seeds being planted in the dark, to the seedlings that begin to peek through. Know that you are in harmony with the Great Mother, know that your connection to her anchors your dreams into her reality, into her matrix.

Your dreams feed the dreams of the collective and are anchoring in the changes that you dream of as light workers. You are co-creating the New Earth. Your dreams are becoming manifest. Focus your attention on the areas of growth and change. Feed the seeds that you wish to flourish. Allow the seedlings of fear, envy, greed to parish by attending to where you put your focus, your attention, your energy.

Spend time within to prepare for the seeds of new growth. Connect deeply to the Mothers Matrix and anchor your dreams. Plant your seeds. Create. Become. Be the Goddess of the Earth that you already are.

Earth Goddess Wand

 

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